After The Bath Tub

I can’t even put it into words, but what I can tell you is that I once tried to kill myself and God saved my life. I tried again, and He saved my soul. I laid there on the floor after having said my first prayer to God and I wept for days. I would eat through tears, I would cry myself to sleep, I could not stop my heart from breaking. Because it needed to be broken. It had been so long since I had felt anything at all, and in this moment I felt loved, I didn’t deserve it and I knew it, but it was real.